FINDING GOD

I found you again today
On a majestic mountain peak
Your beauty made me breathless
So full of awe I couldn't speak
Yesterday I found you
In the face of an orphaned child
On my knees I touched your cheek
You looked at me and smiled

You were there in the wings of dawn
Kissed me with a gentle breeze
Like a postcard straight from Heaven
A glorious sunrise simply to please
You are found on distant ocean waves
As far as the eye can see
I can't escape your presence
Because I'm finding you in me

Forever Loved

Psalm 139:7-9
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,
You could never be mad at me
Wise old man whom my heart could see
You were there when I needed you
Just a young child so full of life
Causing many an adult strife
If I lied you could see right through
You could never be mad at me
Wise old man whom my heart could see

Because of you I changed my ways
Have respect till my dying days
You were there when I needed you
If I lied you could see right through
You could never be mad at me
Wise old man whom my heart could see

Gone again

He disappears again. Can't say that I'm surprised
I know he thinks when he comes home, that hell be chastised
But I won't say a word cause I'm all out breath
Sick from pacing round in circles like I'm high on meth

I know it's pointless to try to talk to you
So many promises, so little follow through
With words, there's no denying, you're the master
But what starts as hopefulness, ends in disaster

There's this place for you, I made inside of me
Cut a hole inside my heart where only you would be
Safe and protected, by my love so strong
I thought you'd never leave but baby, I was wrong

You walked away from me, you left so long ago
Now that part of me? It's dark and hollow
Tried to replace you but nothing fits the hole
Sometimes your body's here but it's missing the soul

And I've laid awake, so many nights that I lost count
You've taken so much, I lost track of the amount
All the times I needed you and you were absentee?
Why can't you go back to who you used to be?

But I can't change a man who never even was
The jokes on me. Clap clap, applause.
You fooled me once so shame on you
Fooled me 5000? Shame on me too.

And even as I write this rhyme
I know I'll never find the time
To tell you that I've had enough
To just get out, to pack your stuff

I know that when you do come back
You'll say you're sorry, you went off track
And then you'll string words one by one
Til I'm enchanted by the phrase you spun

I'll wear your lies like fine jewelry
And we'll both live blissful in foolery

We Danced Through Life

We danced amongst the stars that night when joy had fallen far from sight We danced under the sun so bright And when all seemed lost, we held on tight We danced to the music of hummingbirds And we danced in the silence when there were no words. We danced in the shadows of fear and doubt And we danced when we questioned what life’s about We danced amongst the evergreens That posed for painters winter scenes. We danced in the winters bitter chill And when we danced our world stood still. For that’s what love was meant to be To find the dance when we cannot see. To write a new song when the music stops With lyrics that caress every tear that drops. For when the rhythm changes and tempo slowed We’re called to dance with the seeds we sowed. For life is hard, there is no doubt But Dancing through it, is what life’s about.

PERCEPTION

   Before the abyss, I had it all
Letting go of all I see
My friend, I hope our time won't end
It took a short time for you to notice 
Without knowing who I am 
We talked, we became friends

Connecting the dots, missing every line
Connect them and figure me out
Randomly it comes your way
Underneath a never known chemistry
Ask me to stay and I may
Grinding your teeth into my way
Cut out my eyes, and store them up
A tongueless mouth, nothing to say

Maybe by tomorrow you will forget
Losing myself in my own conversation
Hiding behind my one big regret
Don't know, Don't care
You had me open up
A book I closed, knowledge lost

No need to see 
A mystery called deception
What I am cannot be seen with the naked eye
Along came you using your *ucked* up perception
The ability you miss use
making sense of this connection
A process you carry with your own  patterns
You asked, you listened,  without making assumptions
A taste to take off my shoulders, 
To release an error locked in my Asylum
I myself am enjoying the insights about him
He's got me convince, using his perception

My Silence Speaks

I wish I could tell you what you've done wrong But there'd be no point You'd explain it all away and say, "Fight, Babe Fight another day. Battle scars come and go This you should know It's part of the game fight another day." I wish I could tell you What you didn't do That was wrong too The hurt, it's just the same I know, it's love's silly game I'm done playing You were terribly wrong I can't be strong I got no fight left For another day So, hey! Wish I could tell you... But, then again My silence will let you know I see it all What you hide inside Wounded pride You lied I cried But if I tell you All you'd do is deny So...let my silence speak Thought you're strong, but you're weak Fight another day... Fight another day... Fighting days are through Yes, through for me and you I have no words...no words left So...I'll let my silence speak!